“Good” and “bad” are mental constructs the mind uses to feel in control, not reflections of how reality actually operates. How to fix it: regulate your nervous system, stop over-explaining, act before doubt spirals, and align de The universe doesn't reward good or bad. It responds to energy, speed and internal resistance. Just like fire burns the same whether you're a saint or a sinner, outcome follows how it's used, not who you are. And bad people feel regulated inside risk, pressure and conflict. And their nervous system feels safe taking action quickly. Bad people's subconscious mind expects things to work out so there's less guilt, self-doubt and anxiety to slow things down. And remember, the universe doesn't reward being good. It responds when belief, emotion and action align .
I was heavy hearted at this moment, event though I come prepared but my feeling was mixed. Even though got stuck with word, suddenly blockage.
The feedback really peirced me, although it was decent but they said I'm not aggressive like I don't..
I really don't know now slightly adjusting myself after a series of car problem and money wasted without any savings left in my bank account. Trying to get up takes sometimes but I did get up "Broke Style".
The second time was different, I'm no longer the same person as I learned from previous feedback with more confident and energetic for the negotiation battle.
But later that I know, the feedback cuz they look at your previous statement "$" which I lower than market rate. So the package was not interesting because you're being honest and people treat your wrongly. Next time just be bold and heartless. So, game changer turns to false hope. It's not a win, I consider I lost the deal, I wasted money and time spent just to close the deal.
Why do I have to struggle 2 years or more evertime just to get a little score in life? Why can get it and have it all at once. I should be driving my own sports car and sport bike at this age. I should've been to many vocation with my family except to same place or other people's trip/plan. I should've been published my book that I wish to publish long time ago. I should've able to enjoy financial freedom, I still can't get my own Sushi King at the restaurant without worrying about paying the bills.
I don't know as I thought of something better but still nothing much to be pleased about. I hate this and I almost stray my believe system again like old days, I no longer care to treat other people in need out there because I don't even care anymore until I get what I wished for. It's not like I commit to any crime, gambling, adultery or such bad stuff at all? I only try to make the hell out of living. Feeling unworthy, hopeless, restless, procrastinate while trying to be perfectionist at the same time and unresolved wish.
Why God make it difficult for me for everything I wished for? How can He just give to other people all the abundances although they don't really worship Him? I bearly make ends meet again this month and this has been going for many² years until now. Not that I'm not grateful but why can I have it all? This existential crisis sucks! Enough being Mr Nice. Sorry I'm no longer a people pleaser because I dont give a fok and I no longer care nowadays.
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